assassination breakdown

Tonight is the night to watch the Assassination of Jesse James by the coward Robert Ford.  I'm tired and will probably not make it through the entire film.  Which is a good thing, I have to get up to see my girl tomorrow.  

I had one of breakdowns today and I'm pretty sure I scared Cara.  I'm sorry for that but it's something I can't control, nor would I if I could.  That may seem odd, but it's one of the few things in my life that lets me know I'm still alive.