Saturday Night

Let me start off by writing on Saturday Night.  Cara and I were supposed to be at the Rack N' Roll to meet up with Joe, Lauren, and probably some other people I've never met before.  But before I begin this tale of hilariousness, I should point out that I've been back in Erie County for almost a full three years and I still can't remember where shit is.   So when Cara told me of this place, I was stupefied, proclaiming that no place like that exists on 26th.  She swore that it did, and one I looked into her beautiful eyes I agreed; though with her beauty she could get me to agree to anything.   For some reason it was my job to drive, which I don't mind driving her car, it's comfortable and my back is bothered by it.   Well things progress, the minutes pass, and the rotations on the tires amount to whatever miles added on to the odometer.   After a while she tells me that we passed it, I ask her if she is sure.  Yes.  We turn around.  We end up back by the airport, and she asks me to turn around again, we didn't go far enough.  We get to Saint Vs.  We passed it.  I pull into a parking lot and I can't stop laughing.  We head back the other way.  I can't stop laughing.  She tells me that it's on 38th.  I laughed and when I looked her, well I'm not sure how to explain the moment.  She wasn't frustrated.  She wasn't calling me an idiot and blaming the "ruined" evening on me.  She wasn't acting like any woman I'm used to.  It was refreshing but also deeper than that.  I think my heart simultaneously rose and stopped.  Everything moved slow.  The moment is still stuck in my head.

assassination breakdown

Tonight is the night to watch the Assassination of Jesse James by the coward Robert Ford.  I'm tired and will probably not make it through the entire film.  Which is a good thing, I have to get up to see my girl tomorrow.  

I had one of breakdowns today and I'm pretty sure I scared Cara.  I'm sorry for that but it's something I can't control, nor would I if I could.  That may seem odd, but it's one of the few things in my life that lets me know I'm still alive. 

Sushi sleep cold

I just had my first experience with sushi.  I must say, amazing!  It was nice to see my sister and pat.  They are sooooo in love with each other it's cute.  I'm glad they are getting married, i want to see my sister happy.  and i like pat unlike most of the guys she dated.  

Now i'm sitting here chilling, watching the big sleep and not doing school work like I should.   

so yeah i'm fucking freezing right now and it isn't fun.  I need my super sexy girlfriend here to cuddle my coldness away.   But what if i'm getting sick again?  I surely can't give her a cold, then she would pass it on to little William and that's not good.  

The Words You Smoke

I'm sitting here watching the beautiful colors of the sunset and my mind is racing at a million miles per second it seems.  I have no clue what I did, but I don't have a good feeling in my gut at the moment.  This weekend was so nice too.  I couldn't be happier with things.  

I saw two guys get arrested today.  They were right in front of me.  I love how Cara put it, drama just floats around me. 

I started working on a new poem as well. 

guitar hero

I'm thinking about learning how to play guitar. I've always loved music and my poetic skills (girls only like guys with skills) make me a natural lyric writer. I've just never been able to read sheet music and the only "instrument" I seriously took the time to learn were turntables.

I want to help people.

I am tired today.

Dead iPhone active mind short short

I'm not sure what to write today.  I feel like shit, in more ways than one.  My iPhone is done.  I switched to verizon and i will be saving about 40 dollars a month.  Yay! Maybe I'll finally be able to pay shit off? 

My mind has been really active lately, and as a result I have been forgetting a lot of things.  I'm glad people are willing to put up with it.   

I'm excited to finish this short-short story.  I've never done a fiction piece like it before. 

So here I am waiting for my night class to start.  My stomach is rumbling, though I just ate, and my contacts are dry.  Today overall was a good day, though I've vowed to get more sleep, and if this does not work...to the doctor's I go.   I can't take it anymore...I'm dying. 

Spring sleep second shift work

Spring break ends tomorrow.  It's strange, I'm both excited and disappointed.  Excited because I love school, disappointed that I will once again be bombarded with school work and probably a further lack of sleep will ensue.  Perhaps tonight I will sleep like a baby, I did last night.  Actually I almost fell asleep cuddling up to my lady last night, I woke up peacefully and she had her eyes closed.  The only thing that was going through my mind was how beautiful everything was at that moment. 

I'm still not sure if i will leave from grad school right away.  I've been kicking around the idea of getting a second bachelors and perhaps asking for more time off from work each week.  Sometimes it feels like I'm not even getting a chance to enjoy life because I work so much.  

mars

I'm sitting here drinking a beer and I can't help but wonder what life on mars is like. 

chili dog earrings on the tattoo radio

today was uneventful.  i had a chili dog for lunch, and didn't even taste it.   Work was cold as usual for this time of year.   

oh yes i love this band that Cara got me into, TV on the radio.  Right up my alley.  She got me this other band, Say Anything, they aren't bad either.  i like how i can hear the influence of punk in their sound.  

i almost forgot.  i took out my plugs.  Over the past two years i have stretched my lobes to 9/16 of an inch, and before i went to bed last night i took them out.   A small sacrifice i made that i would have had to eventually.  i'm more into tattoos anyways.  

Speaking of tattoos, i wish i had the money to get one right now...i mean i do but i consider paying debt off a bigger priority

lonely bed

So I'm sitting up in bed, typing this and watching "The Big Sleep".   Mostly, because I haven't had the time to get anything else and I felt like watching something classic tonight.   It's nights like this that make me realize just how lonely I can get.    

Well at least I got to see her today.  She let me borrow some books, but who knows when I'll get to them, I still haven't finished my Rasputin book.  It's funny though, I still can't believe she likes me.  I never thought my admiration for her, the poetic verses I wrote, would ever amount to anything with her.   For once, I'm glad I was wrong.  

In other news, I'm not moving out.  I can't afford to at this point, so if you happen to see me someday and I'm in a particularly grumpy mood... please be kind to me and forgive me, I have to put up with some crazy parents. 

cold

I'm sitting here at work, freezing as is usual this time of year. I'm bored out of my mind. It is another slow day.

Tomorrow I'm going to check out a place to live. I almost blew up on my folks last night. I really can't take much more of my mother trying to baby me still and my father, well, being my father.

I have this lingering feeling that I have alienated a friend of mine. We don't talk much anymore because she is busy as well as myself. But I do think she got jealous when she found out about my lady and me moving. I haven't told her about grad school yet.

I hope Rebecca is doing well...well as well as she can be doing at this point. I'm glad she quit smoking and I hope she stays that way.

My checkbook took a major blow today. The car cost me 650 to get fixed. I have more than enough to pay for it, it's that I would prefer to pay off some debt with that money.

books, books, books

I went to get some books after work.  Apparently it is absolutely ridiculous to want to buy books after 8 in Erie.  So as a result I searched my house for books I bought and never read.  I found a book on Rasputin so that should be interesting.  

I will just say one thing about last night: amazing. 

My mom keeps asking questions about my lady.  I just smile and answer her questions.  She told me my lady is very pretty, and I blushed.